I have decided to keep the super short hair. It is easy to keep up, works well with the hot flashes, and Lily loves it. I have also enjoyed getting many compliments from random strangers when I am out. Today, we went to breakfast and then to the grocery store, as we do most weekends. As I was picking out frozen veggies, a man came over and said, "I don't know if you have that hair cut for medical reasons or by choice, but it looks wonderful." He was the fourth person to approach me this week. I am very pleased with this. I don't see many women out with similar hair, so I get uncomfortable with it sometimes. Having people come up and tell me I look good provides the support I need. More good things to come!
After a five and a half day weekend, we returned to school today!
I got brave (and hot) and took my hat off during a class today. It was a little scary, but if there is one thing I know about middle school, it is that news spreads fast, even if it is of little importance to the students. I figured that everyone in the grade would know by now that I did not have hair. No one said anything or acted weird. Students continued to ask me for help, and I tried to keep my composure as I was instructing and answering questions. It is not that I think my kids are especially mean or anything. They are almost all very respectful towards me. I am just finding that the self consciousness most of us learn as we are growing up never really goes away. My friends will attest to the fact that I am generally very confident in my beliefs and actions, but this has definitely tested that part of me. I was sure that once I lost my hair and started walking around as the bald mama, I would see other women in the same position, but that is not the case. Most people are content with their wigs. I envy them right now. It seems a bit easier at this point. More conservation of dignity. . . I don't know. All I know is that there is no turning back now. I think it would just be weird if I started wearing the wig again. My next hurdle to overcome is getting out of my head about it. :) |
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